讀哲學是處理比較個人的問題、讀政治哲學更著重要如何確立人和社會的關係。

年輕時我們兩手空空無所依，社會地位上成就也不如人，處處碰著釘子拼命的讀書工作卻看不見有明確的路。心裡會有種自卑的感覺，不但令我們待人接物不順利，更令我們在工作上連本身應有的能力也發揮不出。

夜裡翻開書頁，讀著人性，然後讀著社會契約和制度，讀著自由和民主的概念，衍生的社會資源和分配問題等等。覺得無所依時，唯有慢慢摸著書頁，一步一步的走。總覺得一代代的人，用書頁默默的守護著一代代的人。

從人性的探討，純粹善和惡的討論，現代的轉捩點在於如何設計社會的制度，幫助人們發掘出自身的正義感。人有善也有惡，天使野獸的混合體。覺得這一轉變對於人性有更深的了解，又有更深的敏悟。常拿出來和自己的往事比較，覺得人類歷史走走跌跌，犯錯也很正常。

由我們了解自身，走到集體的行動和社會的建立，它給了我們概念和勇氣，向著自由和平等走過去。要能設出一些確切的原則捍衛珍貴的價值不是容易事，但是越是讀著越是感覺到，有些事非得要有結果才能做。

一罐有同位素的蕃茄汁

今天聽講座論及南海爭議，想起了哲學上人把自然私有的問題。
Locke論及私有財產，他這樣的去理解：
"Though the Earth, and all inferior Creature be common to all Men, yet every Man has a Property in his own Person. This no Body has any Right to but himself. The Labour of his body, and the Work of his Hands, we may say, are properly his.
Whatsoever then he removes out of the state that Nature hath provided and left it in, he hath mixed his Labour with, and joyned to it something that is his own, and thereby makes it his Property. It being by him removed from the common state Nature placed it in, it hath by the labour something annexed to it, that excludes the common right of other Men."
簡而言之，你的勞力已經加了上去，所以就是你的了。
但是問題在於第一，這只能說產出是你的，但不能說明土地也是你的。
第二，這假定如果有一件東西是共有的，可以分開作為幾個部份。你把自己的部份加上去，之後整體也都是屬於你的。這顯然並不合理，Nozick這樣說：
"If I own a can to tomato juice and spill it in the sea so that its molecules (Made Radioactive, so that I can check this) mingle evenly throughtout the sea, do I thereby come to own the sea, or have I foolishly dissipated my tomato juice?"
按這樣的道理想，其實南海問題也很容易解決，只要我們一起在海邊每隔幾十公里就倒蕃茄汁，然後看看會飄到哪裡，就可以解決了。
完了後我和Chris聊天，聊到颱風。
「波蘭沒有颱風的，但有強烈的季候風從俄羅斯吹來，所以我們波蘭有句"Everything bad in Poland comes from Russia, even the wind.」

蕃茄汁也算挺性感的。

1.如果你知道你寫的字你想他看的沒看到，再多的人字也是寂寞的。

2.自卑所以自大，而別人不知自大的原因為自卑。其實不純是愛情，整體而言我和別人的關係都很糟。

自中五開始刻意克制，到大一開始發覺世界之大所以是在事實上需要謙卑，到大二脫離自大。但是脫離了自大以後又回開始回到了自卑。

其實很正常的，你從自卑走到自大，走回去當然就要回去面對自卑，不再以自大做借口。

3.自小長大就受忽視，不是群體中最受歡迎的人，又因為身體不夠壯，喜歡自己一個人，常常成為取笑的對象。於是自卑化為學習的動力，中四五開始身居要職，一路以來也是這樣。覺得自己若果不夠聰明，就沒有存在的意義。

4.這晚和Hall Tutor聊天，記住了四點：

1.別人覺得你不想講話，你又覺得別人不理你所以更不講話，只會惡性循環。

2.如果愛對方，會更善於責己。

3.三來那時他讀英華在Annual Ball，認識了英華女校的女友。因為女友常想見面，家人反對，所以電話不聽，就此從她生命消失。有時想來可惜，但總得活下去。（原來想法有這麼回事）

4.出言提醒比默不作聲更需要勇氣。

5.所以我這麼想，人不可能單靠自己肯定自己而活，那是必要但不是充份條件，還有和別人的關係。

出言提醒是必需的，關鍵在於決定能否有容量去耐著小事而免傷及大義。

多給自己的時間，就閒著，感受一下存在。

就算看不見自己有任何優點，最少也客觀、誠實。而且分數身高能比，但你不能比Andrew 更Andrew，石頭更石頭。

理性如是說，有待心理上習慣。

無知不是幸福

讀Nothing To Envy, 得出的問題不應是「北韓人民的無知到底算不算幸福」。

這問題投放比較自我中心，而且問題本身是定義不清的後果。因為我們都同意大部份情況下，人類必需有能力作出判斷，才能有所謂自我選擇，這是先決條件。北韓的人民在這情況下完全談不上有自主的能力，因此說法就像不教育下一代，免得知識帶來痛苦。

就是你知道自己的國家已經是全世界最好，也不會讓你所受的苦輕一點。先除掉有北韓人民確實知道別的國家更好而逃亡，你不知道別的國家更好，也不代表肚餓會輕一點，生病會不難麼難受，終要交代的是自己而不是向別人。

就算我知道別的國家更差，對我的情況下不會有絲毫改變。個人相信的是，往往肉體上所受的苦客觀而實在，思想如何堅韌它仍然是苦的。同學低分而我高分我是不會高興的，如果全班的水平也低，應該關心的是到底能否對自己的Integrity交代。很少人天生出來就以同類受苦為樂，還道是生性純樸的北韓人。

於是，有人會說這就是人，人就是喜歡看見自己活得比人好。可是這是以有待證明的論點作為論點，要點在於你如何定義「人」。人不單單為了利益和比較而活，要是這樣定義，要不就假定所有的善行和助人的快樂也是出於自利的動機，要不就假定作出善行而助人的人不是人。很明顯這種說法並不合理。

Somebody, if you happen to read this and know me in person. You just have to understand that somehow this is the hidden side of me, unconscious, powerful thoughts. Men confront not emotion, he lets them flow in the advantage of his own.

Sometimes we see peculiar actions of others, even inconsistency that appears to be unexplainable. That we would like to inquire the reason for the actions.

If we would understand that reason is often the slave of emotion, and emotion is less a stable component as we understand it, things would then naturally make sense.

We know we don't know. That things don't owe you an explaination.

Well somebody kindly come out of the quadmire!

=]

http://aukalun.blogspot.com/2011/09/blog-post_22.html

http://vicsforum.blogspot.com/search/label/Quotes

I really know what can posibly go wrong, that's why I always keep a distance from the others, for the good sake of the others, and for the sake of my good self.

Hey Chickenwing,

1.The problem that associates is not particularly with the actual terms, rather, the mind behind the words.

I can say I know you in person, somehow, that you are not lacking the knowledge of such. You read books, you study poems.

Still, you don't seem have to have that calm temperament.

2.I often wonder whether those people are by nature of themselves, kids, young and rather one-sided wishful thinkers.

But then it seems to be that even one can write poems or poetic prose like these, there's no definite connection with the maintenance of a marriage.

Often they are kind of soapy and self-centered. If you do study some private life of theirs, well, most poets are no great persons to live with.

3.It's more about whether you can be sensible most of the time when you have to, and sensible in this sense runs no contrary to writing poems.

Somehow the pliable minds, when reading poems like these, would fall into sentimentalism and self-centered-ness, into their own imagined sorrow and fantasy, that whatever their story is, they are the one and only main character.

4. Maybe it's kind of weird and soapy, self-centered again, to say it here, but then these days I intentionally sink myself in loneliness, hoping it would eventually become solitude.

By confronting this remoteness feeling face-to-face, one would develop some sensibility to resist such downward-spiral temperament. He then would really be a master of his poems, for he is not governed by emotions to create poems, but well enough to utilise and recollect moments to write poems.

5.Recalling the places in Europe where people are scarce, places are board. One would have time to treasure feelings and emotions, then poems and prose come naturally as fruits.

Unlike Hong Kong where the background tends to blur and distort the real meaning of poems of such, and degrade it into some sentimental cover that makes us unable to see ourselves.

I do hope we can have for time blow water later on, after my clumsy studies accomplished. =]

Yours,
Andrew

Ignorance is a blessing, in which if there's no alternative, why not be it? Somehow the problem is that you cannot choose, but then you can live with it, hence no longer a problem

都說了沒女朋友，才教人鬱鬱。

事實上每天見著自己喜歡可是要不已有男朋友、要不不喜歡香港人、要不看不起自己的女孩走過是很難過的事。

不過其實有更難過的，就是離開了模聯。還有，之前進了普通話辯論隊，這月也退了，是發覺無論是任何人任何地任何事也能有歧視。就算你不歧視人人也歧視你，內地生一起就會歧視本地生了。

當初要不因為模擬聯合國，就不可能認識你們，給派來當司儀。

原本很有勁頭的，可是發覺

一來同學們功利得很，卻又沒有那份努力。

二來學校管得太嚴，學生充其量只是幹部，都大學了而且還在香港，居然還是這麼專制。

三來學校資助很少，又限我們只能和一兩個慈善機構合作，說它們和學校關係很好。可是這樣不單限制了財政的獨立和穩定，而且贊助機構也替我們做些宣傳的，為什麼非得限著贊助機構是誰？

四來學校老是在說我們要浸大搞浸大活動，可是我眼見天才都是降下來的，這個所謂培訓根本出不了要的人才。老早應該用浸大的名義請其他大學來合作，卻又固步自封，中文大學都爬咱們頭了，還一副洋洋得意的款。

而且和同學們關係都不錯。

這就像是拍拖，你明知分手是難受的，可是也看不見身邊的男人可靠，你們兩個之間還有前途。所以雖然難受，但是還是得分手。

現在想想也許我也能明白她當時和我提分手多一點。不過事情都過去了，也許是我不配她，也許是她不配我，反正事實就是她不肯和我見面。她不相信我改變了，或者是她寡情寡義覺得無所謂了，兩者都不值我再有任何殘餘的感情。

這回兒讀哲學，常想著為什麼這世界會有我而不是無我。我常覺得自己根本不值得現在自己所擁有的一切，只是好運。

好想努力去Justify自己存在的意義，想給別人說我不是就這樣，我有努力證明過自己是值得存在的。現在做些自己認為是有意義的事，日子雖然孤獨，但是我想努力讓自己孤獨的比較有意義。

年輕時在社會什麼都沒有，樣貌身材智商全遜於人，容易自卑。但是我想用些理性主義去看這問題，一來如果發覺自己全無優點，起碼還算誠實。二來我不可能比蔡茵更蔡茵，Andrew更Andrew。條件可以比，本我性是不能比的。雖然理性自知如此，但還得要待上些時間，好讓這概念習慣成自然植根腦中。

It always gives me great pleasure and comfort listening to TM Lee's recordings.

http://www.rthk.org.hk/elearning/leetm/topic01.htm

http://www.rthk.org.hk/elearning/leetm/topic02.htm

http://www.rthk.org.hk/elearning/leetm/topic03.htm

http://www.rthk.org.hk/elearning/leetm/topic04.htm

http://www.rthk.org.hk/elearning/leetm/topic05.htm

http://www.rthk.org.hk/elearning/leetm/topic06.htm

http://www.rthk.org.hk/elearning/leetm/topic07.htm

http://www.rthk.org.hk/elearning/leetm/topic08.htm

君子坦荡荡，小人写稿子。


商女不知亡国恨，一天到晚写稿子。


洛阳亲友如相问，就说我在写稿子。


千古兴亡多少事， 只因满朝写稿子。


举头望明月，低头写稿子。


少壮不努力，老大写稿子。


君当做磐石，我愿写稿子。


在天愿作比翼鸟，在地愿意写稿子。


春眠不觉晓，处处写稿子。

Yesterday a few nasty things happened, which grabbed my sleep.

Yet there is no reason to hope for today as a good day.

I just hope that it's normal. Well.

A Eulogy for Death

Death! Death Death!

Not until my last breath!

The time of creation,

Blends the time of destruction,

Like light and shadow,

A coin with shield and arrow.

Mortals tremble with fear for thee,

Long in our history they wanted to flee,

Comes medicines, and worships of god,

And they all would perish like dry rot.

Then you may ask where my strength is?

I can tell you, there is no need of it.

For you are the educator of mankind,

Without death my life would be blind.

For I am an existentialist,

I do not need photos, nor a list.

For the claim recollection of the past,

Only my memory, or time shall I ask.

Decades on earth have I lived,

Seen Blossoms of Valley,

Drunk Streams to the Sea,

My cup is now empty, but then once it was filled

And no matter how long be I with you,

Time may I fill, but not your solitude

Burn as you may,

But it grows with the wind

In this inarticulate hour, I

Swept the snow on your grave,

Laid my little edelweiss,

Whispered to the bare brown earth:

“Death is just simply the beginning of immortality.”


In addition, well, erm, cuz the poem is going to be sent for competition. It's better to state here that this site is owned by 10017739 of HKBU, and he may adequately explain all the inter-text references in the poem, so he dares you plagiarize it.

My life does not just linger on a few possibilities, without which I would still be alive. It's more important to be establish your own value solely on your own self, of which it's self-fulfilling and nothing can take away from you.

Although I already closed MSN, Facebook, Xanga in order to have myself some time, yet I couldn't help always checking my email orz....

I am learning as well, to be trustworthy, strong, at peace with myself.

Finding someone better than me, knows the worst side and still loves me..

I am learning, I do.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ot2jGOpvtlk&feature=related

【明報專訊】不少手機使用者都應該收過手機短訊，但相信沒有多少人會像英國女子莫伯利（Tracey Moberly）那樣費心，她12年來把所收的近10萬條手機短訊——記錄在案，為的是勿失勿忘，擁抱走過的歲月。最近她更把信息輯錄成書《給我發短訊！》（Text-Me-Up!），重溫短訊人生。

記錄婚姻破裂至名人信息

47歲藝術家莫伯利表示，12年前初次收到手機短訊時，根本不曉得那是什麼東西。「手機屏幕某一天躍現一個小信封，我問朋友那是什麼，他們就幫我開啟信息。不過我不小心把它刪掉了，心裏難過得很，發誓絕不再失掉另一則短訊」。此後每逢接到短訊，莫伯利均儲存起來；倘手機的記憶空間不足，她就謄寫存檔。結果，這幾年從手機累存下來的短訊，寫滿了逾30本日誌，2005年起更上載到電腦去。

這些字串記錄着她由婚姻破裂至重建人生，以及接到男士邀請約會；也有友儕對911襲擊、海地地震等世界大事的反應，以至名人如作家Howard Marks、塗鴉藝術大師Banksy和歌手Pete Doherty傳來的信息等。

亡父未寄短訊最深刻

然而，最叫她印象深刻的，是從亡父舊電話找到的短訊。她說：「他兩年前過身。我啟動他的電話，見到一則沒有開啟的信息只寫了『這是爸爸』。我想，他肯定是不小心把信息傳發給自己了，但當我看到這簡單信息時百感交集，起了雞皮疙瘩。」

莫伯利說﹕「縱使有人認為我癡迷，可是我愛重溫舊信息。那恍如寫日記。我很幸運，隨時興起就能回頭重閱那些信息。」

喜歡我的人追隨我，不喜歡我的人關注我。

不爭朝夕

It lives as a part of our history.

Some girls are pretty, but then also they are not that easy to be with. Something like you love very much, but then the affairs it comes with in protection and maintenance makes it untenable.

She hurts her toe, but then she also wants to come. I felt that such forcing makes no good for both.

Seeing the lights, she felt crowded and wanted to leave, I stood and watched, felt as if life was a dream.

Even she hurt her toe, but then still insists on finding sushi, a bit inconsistent?

Still, I was grateful with her accompany. =]

I have studied philosophy to endure all these. Well, pull out metaphysics and read.

-3-

The Libya War can be described as follow:

Successful factors:

1 Integration of EU+NATO
2 Justified as emergency case, which includes a.Security Problem b.Humanitarian Intervention

Motives:

1 Identity Problem
2 Justify Military Spending

Impact:
1 UK and US again being disobedient of Int. Law will cause problems
2 Bad humanitarian Measures
3 Europe's strong and more unified

Forward:
1 Overall good or bad for Europe?
2 Internal Problems Guided Policies?

When I am in it, it's for real. Mom always asks me to go back home but then, I am a man, and, BE A MAN, geez...

Rationalism and Nihilism do serve important feature of constructing a logical ground before I am switch to some other theories for my life view. You know, you have to be able to work the opposite, like enduring B then you can call yourself A. Sharpens your sense and judgement by going contrary. One of the ways.

1.The lift predicament clearly outlines the marginalisation of individual benefits can be insidious to the group, and eventually back to oneself.

We enter the lift, press a button, someone comes in, presses another, so on and so forth. One possible scenario is that everyone would press his or her lift, ending up all buttons pressed.

In that case, the post-realisation is that we could have made contracts between individuals to walk down two levels each button to save time for individuals and groups, but


 2.I am self-aware enough to keep a safe distance with others.

For two reasons, I need some spaces to think for myself. I am not well-rounded yet also.


3.古之欲明明德於天下者，先治其國；欲治其國者，先齊其家；欲齊其家者，先修其身；欲修其身者，先正其心；欲正其心者，先誠其意；欲誠其意者，先致其知。致知在格物。

I suppose that's why Plato said Know thyself. Only knowing can give true wisdom and courage while not knowing is merely aggressive stupidity.

4.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q4XxaWXsO78

I am finding that I can love someone, and accept her not loving me back.

The most difficult question would be : How can democracy and capitalism be existing together? Given Democracy --> Loosening Fiscal Policy To Please --> Bankrupt --> Dictatorship --> Hope and Faith ---> Freedom --->Demoracy.....

I fear more for the rise of the rights than the dividends of  interest.

I am ready for the interview put forward by rthk. I need to get this. It's election year man.

Currently constructing the theoretical base of the hon. project, but then I am still trying to get the rhyme of the semester.

Studying gives me some pressure, and I am finding that it's actually quite lonely.

The so called maturity is to take things alone, while still finding the ray.

From the dark we know light.

From not being able to become what we want, we are become what we what but couldn't be.

I just washed my clothes. Haha, it's simple but it feels good cause I was never serious at it.

Today I tried my first cook on Ikea's meatballs, and they turned out to be quite good, especially that idea of adding cooking cream into the sauce which makes it thinker and tastier. Hmm, I think Yan can cook.

Two days ago on my way to shop, it was traffic jam. And yet the kids on the car were not annoyed by the jam and were still having fun with their friends and themselves. That's something I forgot, right? Adult focuses on things and things that make them unhappy, while children generally have no preferences, they just switch onto something they are feeling interested in. I need to learn that as well hahaha.

I am starting to see things from other's perspective. Maybe the driver really had been annoyed by the jam, that's why he was a bit impatient with the lady standing up in the car where all must be seated. Maybe the cashier made an inaccuracy and hence she did not smile to me and made the correct change. I can well pay sympathy to them, I can't expect them to be caring for me while everyone likes the others to be thinking of themselves. Well, that's some relief, something accquired while finding shelter.

Pain and fear are useful, I felt. If life is a dream, we need something to remember we are still alive, once we were alive. I am not into that kind of soapy love heals all, for love can be selfish and fragile, someone you love can just become someone else on another day. Pure Noble Love is terribly hard to find, but pain and fear makes one rational, makes one think. It's never about love or not love, it's about being agreeable, considerate, logical, rational when we handle people and our own business.

I am about to start my hall life, hope I am not drowned.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dumncPYPJEg

I guess if I were her I would have been thinking the same way.

其實用書面語實是情非得已。

情況是人們追憶前事時，往往會被一些不相關的事影響了回憶，或是美化，或是淡化。要如實追憶往事實是難事，它總有我執。所以人們只好在文字上多下功夫，希望以此修心養性，以後看事時也能像語氣一樣內斂平淡，若無其事。

最近影響我較深的是一個沒聽的電話。三年前女友單方面提分手，這三年努力改變，後來都總算能接受事實，只希望見面知道近況。可她應該還以為我是三年前一樣，乾脆取消號碼，而在我在相隔一星期後才再打的第二通號碼才知道她下了這樣的決定。

朋友說她也許被我傷得太深，也許她其實已經毫不在乎。實話是，我在乎是以為她也在乎，即使不是情侶的在乎也可以是朋友的在乎。現在她完不在乎，倒是可以死心。自己不太難過，比較多的是嘆息。

中學讀的是Band1，卻未能如其他同學一樣進三大，所以Year1第一學期比較自暴自棄，有一科不合格需要重考。可是也因為我是Band1中學的關係，得到的課外機會比較多，所以雖然成績不好，但還是憑口才得到一次代表學校去開學術研討會的機會，眼界大開而決定好好讀書。之前因為覺得書跟現實社會脫節而玩的辯論，也開始讓我明白到終於書才是更接近現實。無指南針而航，是迷惘無所得的。

Year2開始住Hall，現在離開學還有點時間，每天花時間讀書和教授聊天比課堂上更得益不少。可是現在比之前更認真的讀書，才知道讀書其實也很寂寞的。所謂書中的相知相識不過數紙，但是茫然在書海的感覺卻圍繞不絕。知道人要成熟必需克服獨立，所以也正在默默忍耐。

你別看我寫得這樣平白，可是花了多少時間才能這樣平靜的看待過往對我有滔天影響的這些往事。有時本想多塗多染以博同情或者可以多少自憐自傷，但想這樣又何苦，所以還是作罷。

The days where you would have to just sit in the room and study is hard.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z0kGAz6HYM8

Bridge teaches me a lot, and the most important thing is: Correctly assess your cards, not only you must be able to play your best contract suit, even for uptrick, but then you must also be able to tell beforehand.

3NT= > 2NT+1

Some reasons to leave the PTU team:

1. MUN training
2.Election Year
3.Other Part-Time
4.Wang is here
5.I no longer want to linger on their network
6. They always treat us as inferior to them, like tickets.

Just see the cruel word please, sometimes you must be able to see it before you can actually change it

It has been three whole years, and I felt we both have changed. I thought we then could meet up, talking casually about the past. I did have the slightest thought of re-proposing, but then abandoned that idea nevertheless.

She just cut off her number. She still thinks of me like that, like three years ago. Or simply does not want to make a fuss again.

Somehow just feeling to those you loved so deeply, just a sudden you can be that ruthless. It's kind of, inconsistent, and unjust as well in my opinion. But then I am biased.

Ken is indeed the best man I have ever come to know.

Suddenly I came to realising that I am actually walking alongside with many great men.The girl that was the prototype of Rose, Florence Poon for say, is actually a candidate for a Dr Degree. Ken is on hot with 3.9. Leung Ho Ming as well striking 29.

Me just sucking balls.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5m2T5yfgsZ0&feature=related

Watching this makes me feel better, I am ready for a second call

http://wongminglok.blogspot.com/ Terribly Astute

I am starting by body training scheme, drinking some protein builder during my workout to help my muscle recover more rapidly. I know I don't look and hence I will try harder doing so. I would have nothing to do anyway once I am in hall other than studying. This can improve myself attractiveness and my physical ability.

Still teetering on whether to call her again, that last call took my last ounce of courage. Can I have a refill please?

Packing for staying in the residence hall, and I suddenly discover that I am actually quite nourished. I wonder how would things go

1.Suddenly I think that if I just put my essay here, would civic-exchange suspect me of committing plagiarism? It's better to put a note here. It's just some random comments x demonstrating research capacity ( which is so limited due to some semi-playfulness)

2. Thankful to Ivy for fixing my CV, these stuffs are really girls stuff which their sensitivity prevails.

3. I think if I can forget her, I should long have forgotten her (After all it's three years). But then I cannot. All I can do is accept the fact then move on, but can I move on.

Some time I just grief, then sigh and things go on. I still love her and miss her, but then what can I do anyway? She has got a boyfriend, and just me not considering my social status and her intepretation of me.

4.Shit, let's back to work.

The sample writing as submitted to civic-exchange

Lately, the pro-establishments and the pro-business parties have been preying on the controversy over the right of abode for overseas domestic workers to attack the democrats.

Surely they have not forgotten the words of wisdom in politics: “Never let a crisis go wasted.” Just like our last landlords, they are utilizing every opportunity they can get to make sure their opponents go astray. The Civic Party is the victim this time, as one of their members is currently employed by the foreign workers on this case.

The Civic Party is always about professionalism and “rule by law”, and understandably looking bad when the DAB mobilize their grass-root patriots spreading spam posts on the internet, organizing demonstrations and writing critiques on newspapers.

Yet, the funny thing that we need to ask ourselves is that, the post-80s, the group that has been suffering the most under the hegemony of local landlords and malfunctioning of government, is actually standing up to defend the positions of the foreign workers. It does sound paradoxical and actually absurd, but then why’s that?

The simply answer is that a good nation is hard to govern, the post-80s see through the tricks of the populists. There has lately been a rise of the rightists, around the world. From the Southern Europe up to the Scandinavian, countries are admitting an increasing number of foreign citizens, and they are alleged to be creating a threat to the local citizens.

“The cure is worse than the disease.” The so-called threats are not really threats, at least not as severe as claimed by the rightists. True good nations are those who can accept different views and opinions, creating a vibrant and liberal society.

By preying on chances like this, opportunists stir up the hatred feelings towards the minorities in order to gain votes for elections. Their action is creating a new wave of terrorism, a wave of terrorism which is from the hearts of west – those who claim that they are the true protectors of western values and traditions.

It would be interesting to analyze the impact of recession and extended immigration, which gave rise of the new ideas on conservatism, even extreme rightists. This topic, although much deliberation has been done concerning the Nazis, is in the modern days largely being ignored and underestimated in both sociology and political studies.

I am those of the opinion of traditions, orders, social classes.

I feel that I am not in HKU or CUHK, I am inferior.

I am not worthy of having a relationship either.

Cause I am still starting to learn, to know the real world. My eyes are looking too narrowly, my head is not well equipped with knowledge, my heart is not faithful and cannot endure.

I have much to learn, I must make myself worthy of a better half, worthy of a better name by studying hard, being knowledgeable, have a good character and broad vision.

They sound silly but then they are how I felt. Time for mourning is over, now it's time to use the dissatisfaction about oneself to shape oneself into something worthy.

Misunderstandings

1.My cousin says my haircut is awful, which I agree. But then there's something lies beneath. You know we men don't do talking and express our hearts and so on, and I felt that all I can do for my dad is to let him cut my hair, although it's not good-looking, that's the only way I felt I can adequately express myself to him.

2.I think my cousin is brave enough, or just me a child? She just broke with her boyfriend whom she has been dating with for four years, and then she alone is going to have ct-scans and x-ray, a full body check-up to see what's wrong causing her illness. If I am her, I would probably make a drama out of it.

But she's calm and kindly recollects her memories for me :

" I was childish and always being the drama queen. He finally couldn't stand it so he decided to let things cool down. I am still waiting for him."

"So why only learning until now?"

"Because usually it's me who dumps the other half not vice versa, but when I am getting 31 and decide to be more serious about love and marriage, suddenly things change."

3.This would be the year for me starting my hall life, I bought some bed sheets, a blanket, a dirty clothes' bag, two small boxes, two towels, four hangers. I am going to bring some white shorts and long trousers, with T-shirts, and a suit. A computer, some stationary and the Millennium Trilogy.

The bed sheet, blanket, bag, boxes are all white and transparent. I feel that white would give myself and simple tranquil life. A life that I have long desired. I hope I am getting along well with my roommate.=]

4. For three years, no calls, no seeing each other, just me sending cards to her, and under the circumstances that she long stated that she wanted to break up with me.

I give my last ounce of courage, and I dialed the number. Missed call, I sent her a text message, but when I seemed to be seeing a missed call myself in my phone, or a received message, I simply took off the battery and changed my phone.

I just don't know why, perhaps for three years it has been helping improving myself, by imaging that she still loves me and thus pushing myself to be better and better, but then it's also my last and only scar left, a scar that I would need to get rid of to become completely independent. If she loves me, she will be able to wait for the day we finally meet without a date. If she doesn't love and that message is simply a "no", that makes no difference and I don't want to know it.

It's more like, okay, you love a girl, she has a boyfriend. You say well it's okay, be well, and walk away. That does not mean you can't take the truth by walking away, I mean, even though you take that truth, accept that fact, you don't have to painfully prove your point by facing that girl and her lover all day right? That's sounding some psychotic.

A few happiness and tradegies about Children

I have got a few cousins, and they belong to the same parents. I have kind of good relationship with them, and something is kind of interesting going on about them.

My eldest cousin is married, but then his wife, although often preached by my aunt to have babies, is yet to have any. The reason being my cousin is always late for home, and thus she feels insecure, often calls my aunt for help. My aunt said as a wife she has obligation to handle the matter herself. I wonder whether the babies would make my cousin feels a bit more obliged. But then, got a company, car, house, newly married, handsome, it's hard though, to make him feel obliged.

My second cousin plans to get married five years later, his dream is always to study a degree in the UK or Australia. However, due to insufficient safety measures being implemented, he unexpectedly created life himself. Being a responsible man, he has just married that girl and she is going to have the baby born in November. A bit annoyed though, still he seems to be excited and caring enough. A bit unorthodox though, but shall be sweet though. I know he's a real man.

My third cousin already got married and she is now living happily with her husband and her daughter, who is simply lovely. She likes playing with an inflated lifesaver, and makes swimming noises with it. She tides her toys often, when she's leaving she would bid everyone farewell and kiss them on their cheek. A bit naugthy though, she would just play with iPad and eat very slowly.

My fourth cousin got a boyfriend whom she has been with for five years, lately she asked him to marry her, but then he refused and they eventually broke up. She told me that she does feel sad, for she has been with him for so long the years The bad news is that she is alleged to be having a tumour in her head, and she needed to stay in hospital for checks. She told me not to tell aunt as she does not want her to be concerned.

My fifth cousin is still working hard to save money to marry his first love - a primary school teacher, whom I met is both pretty and curvaceous. I hope he can make it asap, I am pretty sure he'd want that too.

Renovation

To my dearest blog,

I confess, the same name is put under use many many times, but then eventually I come back to you because your design is the most user-friendly one. I hope we can make a good companion. I and her are over, I guess, no matter it has long ended or not, I put an end on it myself today, regardless. =] 

Things will get better, I am sure. Let's try harder in my studies, one day I will make it.