I am those of the opinion of traditions, orders, social classes.

I feel that I am not in HKU or CUHK, I am inferior.

I am not worthy of having a relationship either.

Cause I am still starting to learn, to know the real world. My eyes are looking too narrowly, my head is not well equipped with knowledge, my heart is not faithful and cannot endure.

I have much to learn, I must make myself worthy of a better half, worthy of a better name by studying hard, being knowledgeable, have a good character and broad vision.

They sound silly but then they are how I felt. Time for mourning is over, now it's time to use the dissatisfaction about oneself to shape oneself into something worthy.