Today I tried my first cook on Ikea's meatballs, and they turned out to be quite good, especially that idea of adding cooking cream into the sauce which makes it thinker and tastier. Hmm, I think Yan can cook.

Two days ago on my way to shop, it was traffic jam. And yet the kids on the car were not annoyed by the jam and were still having fun with their friends and themselves. That's something I forgot, right? Adult focuses on things and things that make them unhappy, while children generally have no preferences, they just switch onto something they are feeling interested in. I need to learn that as well hahaha.

I am starting to see things from other's perspective. Maybe the driver really had been annoyed by the jam, that's why he was a bit impatient with the lady standing up in the car where all must be seated. Maybe the cashier made an inaccuracy and hence she did not smile to me and made the correct change. I can well pay sympathy to them, I can't expect them to be caring for me while everyone likes the others to be thinking of themselves. Well, that's some relief, something accquired while finding shelter.

Pain and fear are useful, I felt. If life is a dream, we need something to remember we are still alive, once we were alive. I am not into that kind of soapy love heals all, for love can be selfish and fragile, someone you love can just become someone else on another day. Pure Noble Love is terribly hard to find, but pain and fear makes one rational, makes one think. It's never about love or not love, it's about being agreeable, considerate, logical, rational when we handle people and our own business.

I am about to start my hall life, hope I am not drowned.