When I am in it, it's for real. Mom always asks me to go back home but then, I am a man, and, BE A MAN, geez...

Rationalism and Nihilism do serve important feature of constructing a logical ground before I am switch to some other theories for my life view. You know, you have to be able to work the opposite, like enduring B then you can call yourself A. Sharpens your sense and judgement by going contrary. One of the ways.