Well, for me, I am not sure.

I think, honestly, mine was aggressive stupidity in the past due to fear and belittling myself. (Not being modest, but either being just hypocritical or truly diminishing self, a very volatile state.)

So now I learn to at least shut up quite a lot, so at least I am not talking too much as to expose myself.

Sometimes though, I still talk about what I think and not what is in context of the conversation, something simpler and what the others want me to answer.

Well, for that nurse, I read up, I had my preoccupation of what should I do, challenging them a bit.

I know she says that for my good, that I have to come out and work, so I have to be smooth. I am not smooth, hardworking, but raw and rough like a dork. I have two faces.

Yes, but then it is about being agreeable, I am trying.

I am learning, just well, having too much in my mind and, well, perhaps I have to lighten up and just enjoy the show.