Back from Hospital, MRSA is tough but I will manage. I used to think that things like this, well, it is good to have a girlfriend/wife because she gets worried about you and you feel loved.

Now I think different. I would rather say it's just something minor and prevent her from visiting me, I will keep myself healthy so she doesn't worry about me.

I get it, I really can understand why she hates me so much nowadays, she has given me everything of hers back then. I was greedy, childish, naive and stupid.

Now if you can take the others' happiness as your own, you will feel less pain and more cheerfulness in yourself.

That's how I am dealing with the missing of her, my love, Rose. Her well being is my well being. If you think like that, you will be happier and more optimistic.

Think not with your emotions, think rationally.