1. I am of the opinion that you can't bear to see the others' well being, you will never be so. Jealo. usy is pointless.

2. I have often hoped for her well being, but I really don't have to be there, I am not sure whether I can bear seeing that. Just, be well and farewell perhaps.

3. Even though opportunities might present themselves, I think it is best to avoid relationships before studying overseas. There's enough to trouble oneself, you either worry that you have nothing to worry about, or you worry that you have something to worry about. She's with someone else, she's with someone else. 

It is better to focus your energy to just one single task.

4, Painful as it might be, I am now clearing up and cleaning up my room, throwing away unnecessary things, so that I can move on and grow, and be a better man when I am back again.