1. Language and Thought

2. History and Existence

3. Happiness and God

4. End of Knowledge and action

5. Group, Individual, Heroism

6. Ultimate Pursuit

7. Technical and Accuracy

It is not really worth while to keep writing in hope of my ex gf will see it, it is not really realistic to write alone if you know you are good at it. So, now I write some emails with some random people on the internet, it makes much more sense perhaps, and healthier.

筆友好：
信這回事像支舞，不能跳太慢也不能跳太快；不能太重也不能太輕。如果可以大概一兩個星期一封，然後寫長一點兩三百字。只怕寫得太快會沒話好說，人生這麼快我們都來不及活還有空天天與人分享地寫。留些時間空間，整理思緒，寫得好必需寫得短，但短不就是好。

剛看完真夏方程式，有很多想說，不知你有沒有看過，先猜你有。我自己追了看它全部的電視劇，欲罷不能：

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aGBx1V_dyTA

書信該談有共感的事，只談一部電影也許太讓人接不上去，不過這是互聯網，對比起來這更是Email，要讓你有時看些它的片段，花些多餘時間想想，比起無厘頭地說起些不知就裡的書或事，這裡容易多了。

你也可以告訴我些你喜歡看的電影。

一直以來都覺得神探伽利略探討的其實不光是用科學來加入偵探小說，其實是探討情理的問題。以情感昇華故事一向是小說的慣用方向，只是用了一個科學家來述說種種人性動機所犯的罪，似乎感覺更突顯了理性和情感的討論。

不知女人會不會想這樣的問題，但是作為一個男人，我會好奇，因為多數都是男人被責成是過份理性。小時候想過很多問題，其中兩個我認為人生中最重要的問題是到底情和義容不容，還有就是如果女朋友有更好的條件的追求者要不要分收讓她和他一起。

自從分手以後這七年來反覆觀察，發覺很多人都愛說這類話：這人講理性，很冷漠沒有情感。而結論是這只是誤解，深情者其實最講理性，最講理，年紀少年輕狂什麼承諾都能說而愛不過是一兩天的事。情者可以是愛情友情親情等等，而義者，合宜，關顧亦有念舊，是進一步考慮了更大層面的概念。或者一句話：

有情需有義，無義者無情。

這大概有點抽象，以我自己的看法，就是可以是有義而無情，例如一些犧牲自己私情的英雄；但不可能是有情而無義，往往如果考慮的只有情而沒有情，容易變得私情寡情。最好是有情有義，但是不能的話最少也要有義，義是情的根本。說人無情不算糟，說人無義者也許較可恥。

因此，比起來，由於上述原因，其實我覺得男人其實有潛力也應該比女人深情。還有就是，看這類東西多，會覺得冷漠自私本身不成問題，反而強烈的愛和情感往往才是犯罪的動機。

一大堆有完沒完的，不過這是我想了很久想問其他人看法的一套…嗯…有趣的問題和答案，在和未見過面的筆友通信中發表最好不過。

大家都忙，不一定每次都能寫這麼多，能等的就多等等，有「期」的「待」讓事物美好。

Andy

1.The Mid Summer Equation is:

Awesome

Reaching a perplexing complexity

Demonstrates how good logic leads to fair emotions

Gives headache to moralist and those who have righteous ideas

2, I am getting there, I can feel it, I am in it, and it is now up to myself to believe that I can actually do it.

http://forum10.hkgolden.com/view.aspx?message=4976683&page=3

單對單，被人誇文筆好，爽歪了。

1.其實這世界並無天才，而只有意志。沒有人一生出來就懂這懂那，就算有比別人敏銳的觸覺，也必需下苦功。

因為天才不存在，比較有天份的人也少，所以別人喜歡隱去自己的努力，而後從容說自己沒有練習沒讀書。這是虛偽。

應該說，自己為夢想付出血汗，換來一身的才華，值得事業有成異性喜歡。你付出這樣的努力，默默的等待，應該有這樣的回報。女人喜歡男人的才華，其實就是為自己喜歡的一往情深的去嘗試。

你說，應不應該這字用得自我中心，但我樂觀，相信上天公平。

2.看了廖奕琁的片子，更覺得還是太Dork，要努力培養一些比較Explicit的才華，不要老是只一些思想性的。Sherlock Holmes拉小提琴，說是探案要直覺，多觀多看美的事物有助培養直覺。

3.人美，努力，體質好，性格傻樂，要以她為榜樣

It is precisely for these reasons that good television should be considered very educational rather than a waste of time. You never waste time doing something if something is good and rewarding, and it wastes your time regardless if that thing will not let you learn anything useful

Oh  yes, they are together, probably kissing, probably having sex, that has nothing to do with you.

Do what you have to, and yours shall come very lately.

1. I am of the opinion that you can't bear to see the others' well being, you will never be so. Jealo. usy is pointless.

2. I have often hoped for her well being, but I really don't have to be there, I am not sure whether I can bear seeing that. Just, be well and farewell perhaps.

3. Even though opportunities might present themselves, I think it is best to avoid relationships before studying overseas. There's enough to trouble oneself, you either worry that you have nothing to worry about, or you worry that you have something to worry about. She's with someone else, she's with someone else. 

It is better to focus your energy to just one single task.

4, Painful as it might be, I am now clearing up and cleaning up my room, throwing away unnecessary things, so that I can move on and grow, and be a better man when I am back again.

1. Rewatching Inception makes me realise how much people have been bargaining with their memories, their subconscious.

2. Yes, maybe Rose is warming up with her boyfriend in a bed, maybe there are naked to get even warmer, or having some exercise on bed to sweat a bit. Maybe candle light dinner, kisses on that day, whatever.

3.It's none of your god-damn business, you'd be glad it didn't destroy you and your reputation. What matters is that now you have changed, you are not who you were and you have the ability to be in control of your own life, instead of feeling sorry and asking for pity every time you feel life is treating you unfairly and bitterly.

Things change, we are not who we were, so as the circumspect. So move on, waste no time on things you have no control.

Work some part-time, gain some money and experience, studying hard and be continually passionate about the new things around you and your desire to learn. Find everyday to do whatever you have to, walk through the wall if there is no road.

Get some scholarship, finish PhD in Oxon, be a scholar, teach students good and do research on things you think is important to explore and discover.

But all in all, even you cannot achieve the aboves always : Be good and kind to the others.

Got accepted by Mensa, at first really excited, but then the others brought me back to reality. hmm, perhaps, I don't know. Let's see what's up with it.

1.像是付過錢的才會聽，現在付出勞力換取金錢掙生活費，會是不錯的體驗，更珍惜讀書的日子。

2.本來我以為處世看人千奇百怪，後來出來做事才知原來真的是什麼人都有，要學習如何相處理。

3. Kenneth說自己一路用獎學金在牛津讀上去，令人佩服。他說讀書人也許玩政治不好，但那求真的赤子之心永遠是最有力的武器。

頗有Leszek Kolakowski 的風雅

1. 很多時候，沒有做到的人談論不少，做到的一言不發。讀過的是：「山的後面是什麼？還是山，其實很無聊，不過，去過的人才有資格說」覺得很貼切，追求的正是這種境界

2. 為對方好，是應該好好修養自己，給對方一個優質的愛人。

3.現在我明白自己終於不是吃政府的飯，比起來我好奇心更大，想要研究很多世界上的問題，也不怕吃苦，想要好好磨練自己好和厲害的人一起玩。我了解自己，也明白自己，既然調好自尊，認好目標，趁年輕不怕吃苦，倒不如勇往直前，這才是男人。

想起來，追女人不如追事業，男人的價值是建立於他為夢想而付出的努力，最後所得的才華和閱歷，這才吸引女人。一天到晚追女人，既追不到，事業也無成。

就像人終於愛安全感，但是為安全付出自由，最後沒有自由，也沒有安全。自由是安全的代價，要自由必要承受人生意義的空虛，因為你自由一切都靠你自己創造，沒有預定的命運。

人生對人生觀開的玩笑。

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Ohnl1_Pd-A&list=TLTzZnO0t9JKxO_PgkpvlMD0ZR7c4Kz0wf

Reminds me of my youth.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qsvaO5tlo_g&list=TLTzZnO0t9JKxO_PgkpvlMD0ZR7c4Kz0wf

Now I understand why she is so famous

1.決定要去，那就在這幾個月兼職掙點錢。

2.信寄了，回得好慢。

3.


以詹惟中作戒

4.別想了，就睡